Discovering My Personal Value
My journey of self-discovery, finding ‘myself’, ‘inner peace’, and ‘purpose’ only came together when I realized that “value” isn’t just about the core values I live by, but how I see myself, feel about myself, express myself, and present myself in life.
I discovered that my value is the standard and currency of real personal development and what I bring to the table in all areas of my life.
Through this discovery, I realized the true value in learning to accept, appreciate, and grow from:
- All my experiences, both positive and negative
- Major debilitating judgments I had about myself
- Feeling unworthy and undeserving of my blessings
- And much more...
...To finally see and live a consciously meaningful life of genuine value!
A Few Major Debilitating Value Judgements I Worked Through
- Carrying my low self-esteem, and feeling like I'm never good enough, from high school into adulthood with me for years.
- Being completely unsure of myself and a constant people pleaser in all areas of my life for any form of validation.
- Frequently experiencing overwhelming anxiety and depression due to stress and burnout which I don't know how to handle.
- Being ashamed and angry with myself for being gay and different, often questioning the meaning of life and wanting to escape it.
- Feeling like a constant failure after going bankrupt twice and having to rebuild my life from scratch each time.
- Embarrassed and highly self-conscious after being diagnosed with bi-polar type 2 at the age of 40, feeling like something was wrong with me and wishing I could just be 'normal'.
- Thinking that I'll never be clever, disciplined, or successful enough to improve my life and live up to the 'Joneses,' and feeling intimidated by highly educated people.
Living A Consciously Meaningful Life Of Value
While going through the self-reflection process of acceptance, appreciation, and growth, I experienced significant internal reshuffling of my conscious and unconscious perceptions, and discovered insights that I didn't think were relevant in my life.
I finally discovered my personal value as an individual, which has profoundly impacted my life in ways I could have never imagined.
With that discovery, I also realized that not just my life, but everyone else’s holds immense value, and that the impact we make in life is tied to how much we value ourselves.
By truly valuing myself, I also began to recognize the importance of my time. The time I spend with family and friends, at work, in nature, on social media, and focusing on my personal growth all became clearer. I started to evaluate how I want to spend my remaining time on earth.
With this awareness, I had to ask myself... Am I really adding value to my life? Am I genuinely adding value to the people and different areas in my life?
Answering those questions honestly, was a massive wake up call for me all round that completely changed how I consciously live my life with meaning and value now.